I expected to love you with all my heart
I imagined that great wave to hit me
I cried when they put you in my arms
You were here and I was a mummy.
Don’t worry it’s normal everyone said
You’re tired, exhausted please rest
She needs you more than anyone else
Keep going it’s for the best
I waited for that feeling to come
I fed and bathed and clothed you
I hid behind the new mum fog
But it felt all wrong. Where were you?
Then one day as I struggled to function
The lights went on in my head
I looked at you and was overwhelmed
I loved you, just like they’d all said.
While I’m being so honest with myself about my feelings, here’s a small offering in recognition of the hard time I had after my first daughter’s birth. It took a while, but when it came the love was wonderful and it grows every day.